in the midst of an exciting new life, scattered unfinished projects, and several daunting new ones, i find myself in utter sadness. last night, for the first time in a very long time, i cried like a baby. as i laid in bed next to my new husband, tears started to stream down the side of my face. in no time, the tears became sobs.
i realized that i missed my dad. i began to think about how much i miss living with him and my stepmom, even though we hardly spent more than mealtime in the same room. i miss them terribly. i dont really know what brought this on. perhaps its just a period of adjustment, but i dont think ive ever missed them so much. not even when i was travelling. but perhaps, i knew i was coming home to them.
and the last time i cried so much, i believe it was from a broken heart. maybe i am suffering from a broken heart - of another kind. yes, perhaps its just hard for daddys girl to leave the man thats been the one constant in her life. hopefully, therell be two now.
