its been so long since ive written anything...and so much has changed i can barely keep up with myself. there is so much of my old self i dont recognize or relate to anymore. and i admit, there are times i long for the past, for the me that i once was. and yet, i cannot imagine going back to living a life of searching for something that wasnt there. it was always here. i always had everything here, inside me. and now that i understand the undeniable truth, i cannot go back, no matter how nostalgic and deceptively beautiful life was.
no, im not writing in codes. those who know me understand what i mean. i have been touched by a light so powerful and brilliant that i cannot return to my darkness, not even when i seek it for inspiration. and its a good thing.
a very good thing.
