grace

feeling a bit emotional today...
looking through some photos and news reports and became overwhelmingly touched by faces and conditions in which some people live. so much suffering out there, it is difficult to comprehend. and then here i am, in my condition. a trememdous amount of sadness (or is it guilt?) comes over me, as i become fully aware that i am priviledged. but what did i do to deserve this? and even more important, what did those people do to deserve that?

these are questions i have been struggling with for some time, and although i know that i did nothing to deserve what i have, and that it is only by the grace of God that i live the life that i live, i am still besieged by a sadness i cannot explain.

the tears fall as i think of children who are living in horrid conditions, and of those who are not free to express their beliefs. all the while i live in a country where i can invariably say anything and not suffer much consequence, and have reasonable choices in the way i live.

my mind has been on tibet and the tibetans living in china and other parts of asia. my heart aches for their struggle...

and then i come back to examining my own life, my woes...and the reality of my 'condition' becomes sobering.