second chances

it's not everyday we get a second chance. but today, i was given an opportunity to make right with someone i had wronged.

a while back, i heard some complaints about this person and i took it upon myself to confront her because no one else was willing to directly tell her what they felt. these complaints circulated and soon became accusations. already consumed with my own unresolved history with her, i fueled the fire with my own accusations.

at the time, i knew that what i was about to say would be very hurtful, but i justified my actions by telling myself that, hey, she needs to know; it's my duty to make her see how wrong her actions were and how they affected everyone. i had to make her see the err of her ways...how self-righteous, i know.

i wasn't armed with the knowledge i now have, and i've been part of the reason why these judgements about her still continue. i judged unjustly. and it wasn't until today that i understood the truth, truth i wasn't willing to listen to before.

i realize saying 'i'm sorry' isnt enough and won't change what has resulted from my actions. but i am so grateful that i was given the opportunity to say these words, because i know words can heal. and though i cannot change what i've done, at least i know that the love i feel for her can finally correspond with my actions.