its greener on this side

ive had the most amazing days with pramin lately, and our talks are becoming deeper and more meaningful with time, just when i didnt think it was possible for us to be anymore connected.

today we strolled into borders for some caffine. and as usual, i made my way to the photography section. steve mccurry's book, 'looking east' made me realize something. (if youve ever opened this book, you would understand its effect on the traveler and the photographer). it was hard not to be moved by the faces on the pages. and in that moment, i felt something i thought had left me - a tugging at my heartstrings to be on the road again. looking at those images had me conflicted: be here to nurture a beautiful relationship, a gift from God...or out there globetrotting.

in examining these feelings, i realized that i am happier now, or i should say, more joyful, than i have ever been. and i dont mean the superficial momentary elation that one feels from things going well in life. its more of a spiritual joy, one of peace and knowing God. of course, having the most amazing partner in the world can only add to that.


not long after, we resumed our carefree day as if that moment in the bookstore never happened. we talked until the wee hours of the night and after i came home, i realized that i could not ask for more than what i have now. everything is perfect. and that there will always be times when we want to be on the other side of the fence, living a different life. i reminded myself of the misery i felt while i was away from him, and how i longed for nothing more than to be home, in his arms.

...which is what i have now.