dont listen to that voice

that says...'oh, forget it!'

feeling discouraged with my photography these days. lots of ups and downs and mixed feelings about where things are going. in my mind, i know what i want to do, but my actions, plagued by old attitudes, dont seem to lead me in the direction of success, or at least completion. i suppose its easier to say 'it wont work' or 'what if i fail?'...

of course its easier to give up. its safe, and i know exactly what will happen: i ll feel sorry for myself for a while and hide out in my comfortable shell. then i ll regret not persevering. finally, i ll rationalize that i wouldnt have succeeded anyway and come up with all the reasons why. yep. thats playing it safe.

well, ive given up too many times on too many things in my past. so what if no one cares. so what if it doesnt turn out the way i want it to. so what if its not amazing. the point is to keep going, and finish. i need to just finish and not let my fear of failure keep me from giving it a chance.

its hard to give myself pep talks, but luckily, i have someone who believes in me enough to give me a kick in the butt when i want to just say 'forget it'...(and it really would be easier to say forget it!)